oktoberkind asked: A, D, I, N, Z :)
A: My last relationship? I never had a boyfriend, and that’s because of my fucked up experience of love when I was around 18. I felt love though. I wrote two books, around 2000 blog entries and a bunch of diary entries about it and I still haven’t told everything about how love changed me at all. It’s difficult though, since I keep comparing, and nobody comes even close, so I let nobody come close to me - and to be honest, in the last couple of months nobody seemed to even WANT to come close to me, not even physically, so yiha, welcome to my misery! :D
D: The hardest thing that I ever went through is either the 13 years of bullying and being literally garbage for the world and its cool, tough, wanted kids, or losing the guy I loved twice for senseless reasons. Both of them definitely shaped and changed me into this person I am now, with a strong sense for vulnerability and sad stories, behaving in a pattern of insecurities, fear and memories that definitely mark my actions in everything I do, daily, but it also made me stronger, prouder, and more sharp-minded than ever before.
I: I have two tattoos, a writing on my wrist and a feather on my arm. I have a nosering as well :)
N: Favorite place to shop is currently London.
Z: I’m feeling fine today, satisfied with beer, chocolate and peace, and a daaaamn nice weekend to come up! :) How are you? :)
On my balcony. With beer. And chocolate. Basically waiting for the stars to come. And the weekend. Inhaling. Thinking.
Every arriving already results in leaving and though I know that everybody has their troubles with goodbyes, I would like to tell you that I am the worst in it. Not to the outside though, everybody always thinks I’m pretty smooth and easy going at a goodbye but inside, my heart gets stabbed and tears crush into the corners of my eyes and for a second I cannot breathe.